Dance for me

Dance for me.
Wait for the moment to compelled
you.
let the music ride into your soul.
let it breathe life into you like fire.
touch it.
hold it.
want it.
your eyes express your deep wanting you have for it.
it takes you away to one of the best places anyone can be.
reaching further than the horizon
further than the stars in Universe at large.
place yourself in the idea.
when i think about it
just smile and remember

A sun begins to fall

The sun begins to fall bringing forth the night,
Covering the world in darkness, swallowing the light.
My body shakes and trembles as you lay me in your bed,
This path is too uncertain, this world I fear to tread.
I remember seeing you lie there hoping it won't change;
But time does wonder to us all and nothing stays the same.
Now that peaceful darkness that held no fear for me,
Has become a tormented nightmare that I close my eyes
And see.
A storm rages within me, I see nothing but the past,
And like you I scream out why couldn’t our happiness last?
I reach out the blackness and feel you push away;
I cry out don’t leave me, as I scream out your name.
Long ago I begged you to come closer,
I couldn’t hear, and now it’s that closeness inside I should have feared.
I wanted you to love me each time I asked to stay.
I wanted you to leave me but hold me in my dreams.
But you held me in reality and left me as I screamed.
I wanted to give you freedom; freedom I’ll never know because the freedom I can’t offer comes from in the soul.
I’ll think of the way you’d console me back when we were friends,
The way our love got started, the way that it would end.
I’m not begging you to stay; I’m asking you not to leave.
Perhaps it s too confusing or maybe it’s black and white,
But without you beside me, I’ll always fear the night.
I’ll fear it for the many dreams that will dance inside my head.
Reminding me of happiness and the many things we said.
I’ll fear it for the teddy bear tucked under my arm and for a
A moment with my music when a certain song comes on.
I don’t want absolution; I deserve all that I get.
All I ask is forgiveness to put my soul to rest.
I know that love has hurt you.
I know love has torn you apart.
But please my child and lover.
Keep me in your heart. . .

Twirling around the streets

Twirling around the streets that are unfamiliar to my mind.
Look left then right wondering whom I might bump into?
I pass by these kids who were talking loud about things
that mattered to them. Funny how thing seem to matter
when your young.
I settled in at this coffee shop near the hotel.
Lots of good-looking men and women everywhere.
I almost gave myself whiplash.
I found myself staring out the window when this
girl came and invited herself to sit at the table and do
the same.
Ended up talking to her for an hour or so.
We exchanged info and talked about meeting up later at
some bar? But I had to work the next day
it would have been fun. I explained to her I was only
there for another two weeks. She smiled and said
that’s all right we can do something before you go.
Strange how our brief encounters is ending up so
odd feeling.
Somehow it never seems the same when your at home
and someone comes up to you and starts talking and
you have in the back of your mind wonders of who
they know, or if worst case where can I get away
from them?
I ended walking to this Pub and got a little
drunk before taking a cab back to the hotel.
Thank goodness the cabbie new where to take me
with my slurish language I had.
I ended up passing out on my bed.
To be woken up by the phone ringing.
It was my six am wake up call for work.
I wish I had a few more hours to shake off this
drunken state that seemed to linger in my head.
I made my way down to the shuttle to work and
I slept the way there.
I did my day of work with the most pain I felt
in my head for a long while.
I wonder if I should go do something or just relax
til the next day.
I don't know I think I'll just lay here
and see what happens. . .


Feb14/05

To Many Dishes

I woke up this morning thinking it was going to be another day of work work work. You know I was right, but that's life. It always seems someone is left doing the dishes and someone is sitting by the computer talking to some random strange who wants to tell you there life or they are complaining about how there life sucks and nothing goes there way. I say Shut the Hell up and do the dishes!

Sometimes you have to suck it up and just doing it. Life makes no exception to anyone. Why would it make it for you or me?

My Scattered Ramblings

Where is this line of thought taking me. Scattered on the breaze, scattered in the constant churning of the rocky sea. Having no destionation, having no goal in sight. Just a brillant spirit, soul, personality, but no direction or inspration to set the tone of who you are. There the empty vesle of humanity with no real purpose.
Take up the space, use up the resorses and energy to suck the life from the world. We live in a dismal time of nothing. Everything done and over done. Nothing new is showing itself to us. We live in a comic book movie world. Where hope is a farce to make money for those that don't need it.
Its hard to wake up in the morning with a cheery face and happy tone in your voice to say good morning and have a nice day.

The Coffee Shop

Sitting staring out the window
With people going by in such a rush, while my own thought's wonder back home.
I start to think of my actions before I left.
How much a fool can I be?
As I sit here staring out the window, and every once and while writing a few words down. I am confronted but this blue eyed, blond, with the soft china doll like skin.
She asked if it was all right that she sat at the table. Me being the unprepared person fumbled out "unnn yeah sure" she smiled and thanked me for my generous hospitality.
As the moment passed I realized that there were a few open tables by the window, but I tried to not to read too much into it.
She pulled out from this large backpack some pens and pencils along with this sort of art sketch pad.
I look at her and she clumsy smiles at me.
After five or ten minutes of her getting settled in she thanked me again. I told her it was no problem and smiled back at her. She introduced herself as Paula. and I told her who I am. She smiled almost pleased that I was so friendly. She asked if I came here very often and for the past week or so its been where I've been hanging out, getting some of my writing done. I told her I was in town only for another two and a half weeks and that I was in town for training.
She nodded her head listening with interest.
I felt like I was being rude so I started to ask her some questions? You know the type. Standard first meeting a stranger questions.

Appetite For Eternity

This was my attempt to write about my everyday life. It turned out to be a place to post my writings (poems). So this attempt to blog and tell people who and what I am in my everyday life and it's observations sort of failed. 
But I'm ok how it turned out.

Let me welcome you to my poetry gallery of words. I appolgy now for my poor grammar and spelling. I do tend to write in a frantic and post without checking it. So you will see mistakes. My bad. But please be patient and I may correct the error in time.

I hope you enjoy