Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Dance for me

Dance for me.
Wait for the moment to compelled
you.
let the music ride into your soul.
let it breathe life into you like fire.
touch it.
hold it.
want it.
your eyes express your deep wanting you have for it.
it takes you away to one of the best places anyone can be.
reaching further than the horizon
further than the stars in Universe at large.
place yourself in the idea.
when i think about it
just smile and remember

A sun begins to fall

The sun begins to fall bringing forth the night,
Covering the world in darkness, swallowing the light.
My body shakes and trembles as you lay me in your bed,
This path is too uncertain, this world I fear to tread.
I remember seeing you lie there hoping it won't change;
But time does wonder to us all and nothing stays the same.
Now that peaceful darkness that held no fear for me,
Has become a tormented nightmare that I close my eyes
And see.
A storm rages within me, I see nothing but the past,
And like you I scream out why couldn’t our happiness last?
I reach out the blackness and feel you push away;
I cry out don’t leave me, as I scream out your name.
Long ago I begged you to come closer,
I couldn’t hear, and now it’s that closeness inside I should have feared.
I wanted you to love me each time I asked to stay.
I wanted you to leave me but hold me in my dreams.
But you held me in reality and left me as I screamed.
I wanted to give you freedom; freedom I’ll never know because the freedom I can’t offer comes from in the soul.
I’ll think of the way you’d console me back when we were friends,
The way our love got started, the way that it would end.
I’m not begging you to stay; I’m asking you not to leave.
Perhaps it s too confusing or maybe it’s black and white,
But without you beside me, I’ll always fear the night.
I’ll fear it for the many dreams that will dance inside my head.
Reminding me of happiness and the many things we said.
I’ll fear it for the teddy bear tucked under my arm and for a
A moment with my music when a certain song comes on.
I don’t want absolution; I deserve all that I get.
All I ask is forgiveness to put my soul to rest.
I know that love has hurt you.
I know love has torn you apart.
But please my child and lover.
Keep me in your heart. . .

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Twirling around the streets


Twirling around the streets that are unfamiliar to my mind.
Look left then right wondering whom I might bump into?
I pass by these kids who were talking loud about things
that mattered to them. Funny how thing seem to matter
when your young.
I settled in at this coffee shop near the hotel.
Lots of good-looking men and women everywhere.
I almost gave myself whiplash.
I found myself staring out the window when this
girl came and invited herself to sit at the table and do
the same.
Ended up talking to her for an hour or so.
We exchanged info and talked about meeting up later at
some bar? But I had to work the next day
it would have been fun. I explained to her I was only
there for another two weeks. She smiled and said
that’s all right we can do something before you go.
Strange how our brief encounters is ending up so
odd feeling.
Somehow it never seems the same when your at home
and someone comes up to you and starts talking and
you have in the back of your mind wonders of who
they know, or if worst case where can I get away
from them?
I ended walking to this Pub and got a little
drunk before taking a cab back to the hotel.
Thank goodness the cabbie new where to take me
with my slurish language I had.
I ended up passing out on my bed.
To be woken up by the phone ringing.
It was my six am wake up call for work.
I wish I had a few more hours to shake off this
drunken state that seemed to linger in my head.
I made my way down to the shuttle to work and
I slept the way there.
I did my day of work with the most pain I felt
in my head for a long while.
I wonder if I should go do something or just relax
til the next day.
I don't know I think I'll just lay here
and see what happens. . .


Feb14/05

To Many Dishes


I woke up this morning thinking it was going to be another day of work work work. You know I was right, but that's life. It always seems someone is left doing the dishes and someone is sitting by the computer talking to some random strange who wants to tell you there life or they are complaining about how there life sucks and nothing goes there way. I say Shut the Hell up and do the dishes!

Sometimes you have to suck it up and just doing it. Life makes no exception to anyone. Why would it make it for you or me?