In Your Eyes

Good night stars in the sullen night,
Black sea's ahead.
Whisper lost dreams of the heart.
Goodnight, goodnight the morning comes with dread.
Bid you good morning then good bye.
Distance with longing from the heart.
All expressed in your eyes.

Dec 30/15

Is it me you're looking for?

Good bye.
No other words but good bye.
Do you understand what I mean?
Do you see me walking away, forgetting
Your name, not answering your calls or texted.
Good bye.
Lost in the idea of never speaking with each other.
Idea not yet conceived.
Good bye.
Lost and lonely, down and out,
Rock bottom.
The nights are silent.
Only your own fears dance in your head.
Good bye.
Hold me, screams of sorrow and pain.
Misunderstood, laughed at, used, played with,
You are what you make.
Good bye you.

Dec 04/15

There is a knock

I find myself with an opportunity
To perhaps make a difference.
To change things for the better.
A second chance.
A run to the finish line.
To finally be heard.
The idea is grand.
But the careful me thinks about it.
Long. Hard.
Hmmmmm.
I can feel the paths in front of me.
The changes, the drama, the stress.
But I feel there is hope.
But is that good enough?
I really don't know.

Sept 23/15

Do you know the flash

Oh my life so long ago,
in a club so far far away.
Do you have the flash?
You know the flash?
The momentary rewind to a moment in time.
As if your there.
It like trying to hold on to the moment
like a forever paused.

Aug 25/15

Sink to feel

Every time I feel myself rise
I seem to just fall.
I reach for something in my sight,
But it not there.
Left by your own demise.
Can not find any room in this bleeding heart,
As it falls apart, as it, falls, apart.
Troubles in the streets.
As I feel myself rise.
Blood in the streets.
And no escape.
Don't try.
Rise. . .

Aug 09/15

Understand

I remove myself from the rest of the world.
I will remain a ghost for the rest of my life.
I have very few connections to those I once had
friendships with.
I am even a stranger to myself sometimes.
I don’t identify with those that chase the mighty dollar,
the mighty fame, or the dream that everyone else seems to have.
I feel alone in the sense that I don’t have people to talk or connect with.
In reality I just don’t have the same interest as they would.
I would be called a dick or an asshole.
But really isn’t everyone.

July 23/15

Wino Serenade

The wine for this evening is not new.
You tasted this vino, boozy and true.

You sipped, and slurred.

You regale the moment through and through.

The cork screw I can't remember what to do?

But you might recall all the rest

And tonight I'm the drunken fool. . . 

June 05/15

Somewhere is the light

Your House is in turmoil.
Everything seems in a chaotic state.
The lawn not mowed, the garden not
Planted, the blinds shut.
It looks like no one home.
But you are there,
hiding in regret, hiding in uncertain.
Everything feel like it's working against
You.
You see your bills adding up.
Panic stricken's you.
The thought, "What to do?" run's rampage in you're mind.
Tear's answer your silent inner plea for help.
Sleepless nights's, lost of appetite, fed up
To the extreme.
All you want to do is help, but it's hard to help
Those that don't help themselves.
Everyday it is a struggle to find the strength
To keep going.
But each day brings new hope, new fears and doubt.
Somewhere is the light. . .

May 8/15

Rebuild

The mind is trying to forget.
Things that don't matter,
things I want to let go of.
Each idea and thought slowly escape
the gravity of my brain and leaves
its imprisonment behind.
Only traces of memories are left.
Fragments of something I cannot recall.
Rebuild the mind from the de-construction.
The long slow build.
For the better. . .

Jan 21/15

Years

Years after the fall. The fall in love
Or adoration for another person.
Eventually people change for the better and worst.
Expecting someone to stay the same is naïve.
Wanting them to stay the same as you go older,
Is stupid.
But growing with them, a part of them.
Now that's a goal I can get behind.

Jan 01/15