a hour can make

Watching the day change from beautiful glorious warmth
To cold stormy night.
Snow rifling down on you.
Each flake like that from a sniper mowing you down.
Covering every unsmeared part of the ground, the streets
leaving only traces of warmth under cars or forgotten yard equipment.
What a change a hour can make.

dec 26/11

I Dunno

I dunno, it was a guess.
But as it goes dumb luck
Rides again.
Do you think it's something?
Is it something that should be
Found in a book?
I dunno, it was fun.
I can almost feel my heart
Race, captured in the moment
Again.


Dec 13/11

So pumped

So pumped up on drug’s, in pitch
Darkness, only one laser light lit
The way; along with some people
Holding multi-color glow sticks
In the middle of nowhere.
But there was the music which
Drove me on and on,
As my body moved in agony,
Physically I must have been
In hell because I just couldn’t rest.
My mind filled with adrenaline, I
Would need to be torn off the dance floor.
That night was the most powerful
Experience.
It could have been said that it was a
Complete sensory over-load,
A spiritual freak-out.
I was on the edge of a apocalypse
Within,
Yet I found salvation at the end. . .
 
June 14/90

Look how far

Look How far we’ve come
Just to fall away to dust.
Ends have no end,
While beginnings come
Then go and come again.
But how far did we really
Go. . .
 
Aug 29/00

Silvery grin

Bury secrets behind your
Silvery grin.
I won’t pretend that I don’t
Know of your sins.
I just wait until you
Find the lines to speak your
Mind.
Or until you feed me another
False line which I can
See through. . .
 
Feb 5/00
 

Something In the way

A fiery woman, nobody forgets a blond.
So lovely, stunning and statuesque.
I’ve become her prisoner.
I fell under her spell.
I think about her.
I dream about.
She is so irresistibly mysterious,
Seductive and captivating,
I long for her affections,
I starve for her attention.

Jan 29/00

So urgently needing to unlock the
Door to my hidden dream’s
And amid the surrounding calculation,
To charm, soothe and sway
Her senses, to pursued her.
Yet she came out of nowhere,
She crept up behind me and
Surprised me, she stood on
Her tippy-toes and kissed my cheek.
And I said to her,
now that wasn’t so hard?
For years I’ve adored you –
What took you so long?

Jan 30/00

Through she said nothing, I was
Exhilarated.
I had no immunity and
Wanted no resistance.
I longed for her and her tender
Charms.
There is nothing else on my mind
But her. . .

Jan 31/00


God! She’s has beautiful eyes
Of blue.
Not dark blue of sapphires, nor
The azure blue of the Caribbean sea.
Rather that unusual, icy
Grey-more-than-blue eyes
Typical of an Alaskan husky
There hypnotizing, tantalizing,
Appetizing, I tremble with anticipation. . .

Feb 1/00


I can’t believe this is real,
The way that she makes me
Feel.
Highly charged with secret
Fantasies and desires.
And when I reach over and stroked her
Arm, the touch of her skin filled
Me with desire.
Warmth enveloped me like the coming
of summer
I love it.

Feb 2/00

How do you

How do you
Say your
Sorry,
When you go
Away?

June 19/99

How do you
Say your
Sorry.
When words fail
You?


June 20/99


How do you
Say your
Sorry,
When thoughts have
Come to 
Pass?

June 21/99



But why say
Your sorry
That you fell
In love with
Them?

June 22/99

Been thinking about you

Been thinking about you
Being out there.
So quiet, without words
Or a care.
I've been thing about
You. . .

Dec 01/99

Acid '99

The first great influence gave me
The feeling of being understood.
Nothing prepared me for that
Experience of an intense
Life within the complete, emotional,
Intellectual and spiritual
Fulfillment -
We are living. . .

Dec 7/99

Let Alone A Ghost

As one has never seen love,
Let alone true love.
True love is like seeing
A ghost.
We talk about it but
Few of us have never even
Seen one.
Let alone experience true love
For ourselves.
Let alone a ghost. . .

Oct 19/99

Of all sorrow

It's is divine love to love.
Should one die of love; one dies
Of devotion to that love,
Not abandoning what ones own heart
To puressure of others, but to what
One chooses.
But savory that which one
Loves before one dies.
There loves, love for them. . .
oct 11/99

What one may want is not what one fines

Lovers empty eyes dost not
Make love some sweet vail place to
Lay one's treasure down.
To bare existence of love, life,
Then death with not a feeling but of
Store.
Lovers touch like that of sulk. I still
Remember that moment of that first
Touch still.
How the flesh overwhelms the eyes and
After all treasures had been lain
Would the feeling of stone remain
Would that silky touch be still in
Hand or would it have turned
To dust.

Sept 30/99

Sometimes I can still tell

Sometimes I can still tell
That this emptiness inside
Will pay off well.
But it doesn't fill this
Gaping pain that leaves
Me hurting somehow.

Oct 31/99

Fire hall
Halloween party '99

God is not my strength

God is not my strength,
Nor the places I go or live.
But inside my abandoned
Mind lies the traces of hope.

Oct 7/99

The greatest prison

The greatest prison anyone can live in
Is within there own mind.
Forever tormented.
Forever damned with the thoughts that will go
Round and round in their head.
A prison without walls, bars or guards.
Just the open space around you
And the dark thoughts that will over
Come you making you wish
The pain away.
Thus the mind is the greatest prison
One must escape from . . .

Feb 20/00

It is impossible

It is impossible to repress the
Erotic desire.
Chastity cruel intention could
Not repress all erotic realms
Among the soul's passion
Truth, beauty, and love could
Not unite the most powerful
Dream, but by sheer reason
To purely exist on earth.
Chastely erotic love did
Ratify the idea that there is
No other world than that
Without a kiss. . .

Oct 14/99

The Spell

Pass again in those techno grooves.
Single notes pound out, then faster and
Faster until your totally wrapped up inside
The mood.
The light's change from red to blue to blinding
White then finally blackness.
This state takes you farther than reality,
That higher plan of exzistance moves to the beat,
Finding your own moves reaching climax over and over
Until the tempo changes.
Slowing down, slowing down, slowing - down.
Then a explosion of lights, sound consumes you;
Dances through you until you become angels and shed these earthly forms and become a part of the universe.
Falling under the DJ's spell of absolution.

Sept 11/99

Every Part Of Me

Every part of me finds a thought of
You.
I'm not ready yo say I'm sorry, let
Alone hello.
But the longer I wait the farther you'll
Be from me.
How the words escape me, how they
Seem to be so silent inside of me.
Can you understand why I'm staying
Away?
Can you forgive me for being so
Lost from everything that was
Between us.
If I tried to come back would you
Let me?
What would I do, what could I say?
But nothing. . .

Sept 23/99

Where To Start

Where to start?
Where to begin?
How do you say your sorry for
Something you did?
Echo's of missing you.
Enter my mind.
Time and time again
I wonder why?
Did my heart have to bred for
Sorrow I've Mae?
For all the things I did just to
Keep me sane was not worth the
Price I paid.
I want all this to end.
But it won't be the same.
So now that we're
Broken.
How do we fix;
The problem at hand?
Where to start?
Where to begin
Why has it have to end?
Good bye, good bye
My friend . . .

Sept 27/99

A Little Bit

A little bit of weed.
A pipe, a light
Lips and breath to breathe
In for the moment
Out like bliss
Thoughts drift in a soft
Haze.
How great . .. 

Sept 24/

Twist Jump Shout

Twist then turn.
Jump then fall.
Move and groove to the music that flows.
Feel the energy!
Feel the rush!
Why wait till you turn to dust?
The music is playing
The stage is set.
Just let the moment take
Flight. . .

Sept 23/99