Breaches in the twilight

Breaches in the twilight

Between the seamless clouds and the dreamy idea's of the world

I wave good bye to the idea of things that were of no consequence to me. Things that no longer had any real meaning to me anymore.

They once had some sort of great relevance to me but now fade like shadows on the wall.

Step by step I recover the ground lost to me. Beneath this sort of misguided way of reasoning. Answers came and found a home within this sea of turmoil, which is found inside this chaotic mind.

Rambling on and on about things that really don't have any place.

Self tortured for the many losses I have endured. I can count them all as being of some importance to me.

Each had there meaning. Some were greater and others were not.

But I try and let go and yet still remember what it was that I learned  from those that came before and for them as well.

But what have I done to keep this spirit alive? What idle have I built

to remember them or even myself? I am only left the memories that

lay still in my head. Wasting away into nothing. They should be remembered. Not forgotten like some morning news show.

I reach for reasoning in these word, within these thoughts, within these feelings. But still it feels like I'm trying to look through the

clouds and see what is beyond heavens of twilight thin. And I

struggle to hold onto what is left of my squed way of understanding

things. But still I push on through the twilight. . .

10/23/02